You can leave me, I’ll be right here…

“I miss you more than I should, than I thought I could Can’t take my mind off you”

It seems unthinkable that you can make me so happy. That simply talking about everything and nothing could make me go to sleep with a smile on my face that promises to remain till i wake up. Of course, as i let myself go further and further, the more i fall in love.... I know a huge risk is there my heart can be broken into pieces and my dreams can shatter.


But I suppose, that’s why it’s all worth it. Why would i care about something that i would not mind losing…..

I used to say I wasn’t afraid of dying. But I’ve realized recently, that I’m very very very afraid of it now. Simply because I don’t want this feeling to end, to let this go no further, to not see it through.

Memories of conversations making me laugh hours after they ended; secret words and signs and whispers that no one else could possibly understand; a sudden re-evaluation of everything around me because something in me has changed forever; dreams of moments, moments that are dreams in themselves; staring at the ceiling not seeing the clock tick as my thoughts are consumed; smiling at odd moments, remembered touches, late nights, distraction, madness, mania, insecurity and above everything - a constant feeling and love for you which keeps growing everyday.

Oh please, don’t let me down. I’ve come so far, not hoping and not caring. Or at least trying very hard. Now Everything im leaving on you..